its cold out side and im out here all alone standing in freezing water that is up to my knees....yes im stupid i dont why.....if im here any longer i just might die.....is that what i want to exist some where else.......shit i cant feel a pulse.....i cant breath.....nose pooring blood....faith no more i have for no one else.....they dont care .........just standing there wasting my life away.....wait what life ......nothings there....my legz going numb......heart beating slower....collapsing to the ground...land in a foot full of water....now im going to drown......i think i hear foot steps...they're coming close......suddenly im pulled up from the water....thrown to the ground .....blurry vision comes into focus.....i see a rifle in my face......i hear a voice ....its screaming what the fuck....the gun is loaded......i hear a loud bang.....then i see nothing but darkness.................alone again..........................

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