What is love at first sight? I am blinded by my own darkness to even know...

             It is so that my true self is sealed behind the walls of solitude to hide the pain thats been troubling me for many years and more years to come...Can you still see it behind my fake smiles and laughter?...of course not...you do not know me that well to notice...

      My only enjoyment out of life is my death..My depression is so deep, that I feel suicide is my only way out...but I can't...Failure has succeeded again...

      So I ask...what is love? Is it now this day that love is only what you see on the outside?...If this is so...I would like nothing more than to show you what has been inside of me out...Then I will see who truely loves me...No more lies will be told...

      So...are you really my friend? Do you really love me for who I am or are you loving me for what I represent?..

      Prove me wrong...show me that you love me instead of saying words that seem to you is enough...I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all..

     In the end, my sorrow has made me what you see today...Don't criticize me of what my twisted mind has brought forth to you...

 writen by the one who lives his life in darkness...

                NEmN